So I haven't been on this thing for a lifetime, so much has happened since I last updated.

Well first of all; Rome. Hard to put in words but I will try. Fucking amazing. The most romantic city I have ever been too and sharing it with Dan was incredible. We went to the Collosium which was breathtaking and Vatican City which was also insane. We climbed about a million stairs to the top of St. Peters cathedral which was horrible in the ridiculous heat but well worth it once we got to the top.The view was insane. We ate out at lovely restaurants and ate lots of Italian ice cream which is to die for. We did lots of shopping and LOTS of walking. The city was beautiful and our hotel was so cute. It all went so smoothly, I was waiting for something to fuck up, being mugged, losing something, getting lost etc, but we were lucky (apart from everything being FUCKING expensive.) Coming back to Brighton was miserable, I never wanted to leave. I highly recommend going. 

In other news I am trying desperately to make a decision about which uni to go to, where to live etc. It's stressing me out a lot but hopefully visiting London met this weekend will help me make up my mind.

Other than that I joined the gym and have been going quite a lot. It's making me feel a lot better but I need to stop smoking altogether because after an hour at the gym I am close to throwing up every time. Hopefully this will all be worth it in the long run.

I was going to right even more of an essay on here but it turns out I'm late for work so see ya x

Enjoying being a slob recently. Not doing anything but hanging out with Dan and close friends. Very fun but I need a change so I am starting the Gym in two weeks  (when I get back from Rome) if anyone wants to join me please speak up, some moral support would be much appreciated. One main trigger for this was receiving a valentines card from my HILARIOUS father that had this written on the front: "God, I know you can't make me thin so please give me fat friends."  Very funny. Thanks Dad.

In other news  I just watched The Departed and it was awesome.

Excited about this: http://www.guesthousebeldes.com/

It's where me and Dan are staying in Rome! I can't believe we get to escape to this place so soon, very very happy about this. Also very pleased that I got Valentines day off work even though secretly I hate the whole thing about valentines day, so fucking stupid but I guess a part of me must enjoy it seeing as I go along with it every single year since I can remember...

In other news, I am seriously so miserable at the minute with my jobs. The fact the cunt who pushed me, screamed at me and made me cry, won 'employee of the month' award makes me sick. How is that fair? Whenever I'm at either of my jobs it's never as bad as I think it's going to be but I still get so down about it, which is stupid because A LOT of people have it much much worse than me. It's caused me to completely lose my appetite and smoke disgusting amounts. (est. pouch of baccy every two/three days) which, in conclusion, has also made me broke. I had almost £300 the other day and after one day in town I looked at my balance and it had gone down to £80. Fuck. Need to stop doing that...

I still haven't heard anything from any of my Uni choices... fuck everything. If I don't get out of Brighton this year I will kill myself.
p.s I RULE AT 'CALL OF DUTY'

Bye.

So a lot has happened since I last updated.

Dan went on his England tour so me, Mad and Marina made sure we went to as many of the shows as possible. The London and Brighton shows were awesome and quite overwhelming, shows were selling out and everyone screaming along was amazing. After the London show we all missioned it to Brixton for the Kerrang after show party, it was sweet seeing everyone there and I got absolutely hammered off one and a half K ciders and some weed. (Cheap date.) We went on the BMTH bus for a bit (which is so nice!) and then headed back to Architects bus and carried on smoking till the early hours of the morrrrn. Arrived in Brighton and was desperate to wash, headed home and returned to the venue ready for hair of the dog time. The Brighton show was brilliant and then everyone headed to the after show party at Audio that I managed to organise (stressssfffulll!!!) but very successful. Emotions were running high because Misery Signals and Textbook Tragedy were all heading home back to America/canada. It was really sweet/sad with everyone saying bye etc. 

Since then me and Dan haven't really left each others side. It's so nice to have him to myself and we've been catching up with new Lost and 24, both awesome but Lost just stresses me out!!! OH and I don't know if  I've mentioned it on here yet but Dan and I are going to Rome this month for Valentines! I'm so so so excited we booked our hotel last night and it looks amazing.

Work tonight- arrrugh!

SEE YA 

Future stuff blabla

So I visited Greenwich uni yesterday to check it out and to make sure I wanted to actually do the Event Management course there. It was awesome, the uni was stunning and right on the Thames. The course is exactly what I wanted it to be. Bless Tamsin for being the best friend ever and for sitting with me through a VERY long talk about the course. The tutor said that I can get involved with things such as festivals like Reading etc and also London Fashion week which would be insane.

We had a little wonder around the town too and it was sweet! There was a little market with loads of different food stalls and stalls with clothes and trinkets and what not. SO cute. I could really see myself there so I hope hope hope I get in so so bad!!!

Last night at work I had a really enjoyable evening which also included drinking with Nick on the Boudiour bar but it turned sour at the end when I helped out in the cloak room and got shoved out the way and when asking the spanish bint what that was for she was screaming "go awaaaay, go awaaaaay" (Obviously mental in the head) I was sleep deprived and ended up crying and realised how shit and selfish people can be, even when you go out of your way to be nice. Wankers.

ALSO pissed off that I left £20 in a cash point in London yesterday and walked away because I'M A FUCKING IDIOT. Stupid caffeine overdose messes me up.

In other news, the end of this week is going to be amazing! I can't wait to have my boyfriend back and get ready to go to Rome. EEEEEEEEEEE!

So there's not a whole lot to report, or anything I would particularly want on here for the world to see (aka the few people that bother to actually read this.)

I DID found out that papa roach are bringing out a new album for 2009, which is quite exciting I guess... 

In other news I'm still waiting to hear if I have got into any Uni's which would be nice to hear soonish so I can start to organise my life.

Next month Dan and I are going to Rome! This is the best thing ever... I'm so so so excited! We're going to get a really nice hotel and everything :) We're going for Valentines day but seeing as it was about £300 more to go on ACTUAL valentines day we're going the weekend after. (cheapskates)  I think it will be nice also because it will be before he goes away to America again. (But I'm pretending that's not happening for now so anyway...)

I'm a bit fed up with some stuff at the minute but it's gay because I don't really know what/why or how to stop feeling like this. I thought it was the pill so I gave that up and have resorted to a new diet consisting of tea and cigarettes which I am also going to give up soon because it's making me a crabby bitch. Never happy...

This Saturday me and Tam are going to London for me to go and look at Greenwich. I'm quite excited but nervous because (if I do get in) it's going to make it all a lot more real and I will probably have some reality hit and have a little melt down/panic... I guess we shall see. 

On a final note, I am supposed to be organising the Architects after show party for the last show of tour and so far I am doing an awful job slash no one will answer the phone at the places I want to try to book so any suggestions of where I could hire somewhere out on a Saturday night would be very handy, thank you!

Night x

So yesterday was a massive success.

Me, Marina and Mad drove up to Colchester to see the boys half way through their tour. While Ali and Sam knew the girls were coming I managed to surprise Dan which was really fun :) We watched them play a sold out show which cool and then we all hung out in their bunks on the bus. None of us wanted to leave but they had to drive to Liverpool. So us girls drove home, stopping for dinner at 3 in the morning haha. I love those girls.

In other news, I am changing my pill. I HATE it. It's making me go mental, giving me jip, making me depressed and I feel awful. Looking forward to saying so long to that fucker...

erugh

Shopping

Very excited about these things arriving.

Online shopping at 5 am isn't probably the wisest idea but fuck it.

The last Facedown at Astoria was awesome the other night. Nice to see old faces/meet new faces and have some much needed chats with others. The stripers with everything hanging out everywhere weren't needed though...

In other news I recently got some flesh eating disease (a bug) of some sort that decided to make me sick enough to turn myself inside out. Having a phobia of being sick definitely did not mix well with that either. I think it might be coming back a little bit too... damn it.

Dan has just started his January headline tour, which I'm really excited about for him, even though I'm already missing him like mad. I'm really looking forward to the London and Brighton shows and also hopefully the Portsmouth and maybe Oxford shows if possible too. Me, Mad and Marina will hopefully get to stay on their bus too which should be fun!

Oh, today also really opened my eyes to how much people are dependent on electricity. Ours went, for 5 hours almost, which meant; no hot water, no tv, no computer, no gas, no heating, no lights, no fridge/freezer/oven, no hairdryer/straighteners, no kettle, no music etc. It did, however, result in a really lovely evening spent with my mum and a pack of cards/charades by the fire and candle light. It was really nice :)

Right, I should stop distracting myself from sleep... once again.

Night x

Making amends. Yes, very very good! 

:)

Brilliant! My boobs are getting massive.

I ♥ the pill!

New Years Resolutions

May as well:

- Get into Greenwich Uni.

- Do well at Uni.

- Get fit.

- Quit smoking/cut down.

- Less paranoia.

- Save money.

- Read more.

- Have more 'me' time.

- More exercise.

- Lose weight.

- Make monthly appointments that will make me feel nice, eg: manicure, massage, pedicure, yoga etc.

- Do more good deeds.

- Visit my Grandmother more often.

- Have more time away from Brighton.

- Go on more vacations.

- Be more selfless.

- Spend less money on clothes I never wear.

- Spend less time on the internet doing pointless stuff like this...

- Maybe get a boob job. ho ho ho.

BRB going to Sheffield for NYE.

Happy New Year everyone!

So Christmas day was the best!

Woke up and did the traditional stocking opening with my mum and dad and then moved on to the big presents and I got really spoiled this year after assuming it would be a tame one... I couldn't have been more wrong. I will post pictures here at a later point.

We started to drink at 9 in the morning and had plenty more drink and food throughout the day. Tamsin came round at one and we had our Christmas dinner, which was amazing. My mum and dad then went to pick up Dan and Abi and then we all opened presents for each other around the tree. They all got me some of the most amazing presents! I was so over-whelmed. I think they all enjoyed theirs too :) We carried on drinking and then Lloyd and Ben came round and we played Friends Scene it, which Tamsin and I won, and then everyone left at some point and me and Dan watched The Hills Finale, which sadly enough, had me in COMPLETE TEARS. Then we watched Home Alone to finish a wonderful Christmas day :)

Today I am at Dan's house for Christmas day part two.
More food and drink.
We're also watching Home Alone two.
YAY.

Tonight :)

erugh

Fuck this.

At least be fucking subtle about it.

Agent Provocateur

GIMME!



























I'm blue now because I don't own ANYTHING GOOD!

One day I will be able to go shopping and buy:














































I can't wait... I'm not materialistic at all...

Well, that was a fun break from my work.

On a lighter note

My life is going pretty smoothly right now. Apart from having to work River Island and Oceana twice a week I am enjoying Brighton a lot more than I was a couple of months ago. Surrounding myself with only people I really care about and avoiding drama of all sorts, makes Brighton a lot more livable. 

I've calmed down a lot recently too, not loads of going out but nice evenings in with Dan and a good series/movie, which I'm finding a lot more enjoyable right now. I love this build up to Christmas, it's the best staying in weather. I also like Christmas because it means everyone comes home! It's been so good seeing everyone who has come back.

I'm having quite a heavy London withdrawl at the minute, I miss the people and evenings there but hopefully there will be plenty more over Christmas/when everyone returns. I'm so low on funds too, due to my extreme Christmas shopping addiction that seems to have gone into overdrive this year, but hopefully the new year will bring more dosh which means seeing more people I haven't seen in a while.

I'm still applying to Uni which seems to take forever and haven't even started my personal statement yet. It's one of those things that stresses me out but that I can never bring myself to do for some reason. I really hope I DO get round to doing it though because Ellie has pretty much set us up with a sweet flat on Brick Lane next year, for cheap too. So that should pretty much be a massive incentive for me... COME ON AIMI.

I guess I should get ready for work tonight. Boring. While everyone else goes to JT's last ever show tonight. Have fun.

Becoming

Too much effort...

There are a few of things I miss.

Hungover Tuesdays

I feel a little like death today but last night was another mental Monday. I'm in the mood for detail so enjoy (or not.) Every Monday consists of Deep Bar and Ponana but it never fails to be a fun night. Last night Abi and I downed vodka while she watched me dance to Sinatra Christmas songs and then we danced all the way to Deep Bar to meet people. After a drink and a half of £1.50 goodness (half of the last one I had to give away because I had definitely gone beyond my limit) we headed to Ponana. I went a bit crazy with the dancing (apoligies to everyone whose drinks I spilt) and then Ellie, Fleur, Ines and Josh showed up which tipped me over the edge with excitement and also Ellie's debit card that was not needed in the slightest but used to full extent at the bar. THANK YOU.

I definitely fell over too many times last night, they should make the floor less slippery God damn it. I made sure Abi came down with me at one point though.

I barely remember getting home and I woke up, drunk, to be faced with Tamsin and Croissants in my kitchen which was a wonderful surprise. 

Now I shall tend to my eroded liver with some well needed water and paracetomol. 

I hope you enjoyed my first blog.